Urghh!

Today has been awful. (Of course it has, i'm completely pessimistic, how else could it have gone?)

Started off terrible. There was no bacon in the house, so i ended up eating left over potato curry for breakfast. I don't know how many carbs it had, but it was far, faaaar to many. And then, 'cause my blood-sugar was going crazy, i had a sort of mini binge on cookies. I only had about eight or ten, but they're about ten carbs each. Then i ate some chocolate. . .

Urgh. Can't believe i managed so much so soon. Not sure how many carbs it was all together, and i don't want to know. I will do better tomorrow. I HAVE to.

Dinner was much worse though. I have to sit down with the family, so there's no getting out of it. Had curry (very low in carbs, good choice), a small portion of rice and naan bread. Don't know what i was thinking! Recently i've just picked at any rice i've had, and nobody has minded so far. But i ended up eating almost all of it tonight. Why?! I know how fattening it is and i don't even like it. And there's the naan bread as well. I could have had one or the other, but no. This fat little piggy needed both. I'm disgusted with myself. Had my dinner about three hours ago and i'm still boated. So bloated that i can't even drink water right now. Really want to throw-up, but it's too late to get anything up. And everyone is in and everyone would hear.
fml :(

Weighed just (just) under 11st 6lbs  this morning. Slight improvement from yesterday when i weighed exactly 11st 6lbs, but not enough. And after tonight i'll probably be back up to 12st.   I hate this. Why can't i just wake up skinny :(

But moving on. . .

Decided that i won't refer to myself as "Pigg" any more. It's just going to get annoying fast. Instead i'll just call myself Mari Posita. As in mariposita, Spanish for 'little butterfly'. Much less annoying :)

Good luck to any butterflies-to-be out there x

Mari.