So had good few days :)
Was in by myself for most of yesterday, so i didn't have to eat much. Just half a lasagne (which was waaay too carby, but i had been exercising, so i guess it's not too bad)
And today, i managed to get away with eating half a sandwich, some of my mum's chicken stew (without potatoes :D) and one very small piece of cake. Its not brilliant and i don't exactly feel great about it, but i s'pose it could have gone a lot worse. And, at the very least its a proper start. I know when i wake up tomorrow i won't feel any thinner or happier, but if i can do (much) better tomorrow maybe i will soon (fingers crossed!)
Tomorrow should be a little better though. School starts again, and i can always get away with not eating. So long as i don't get any cravings, the only thing i'll be eating tomorrow is my dinner (though not much of it ;)
But i'm dreading going back to school tomorrow :(
I've got an exam (which i haven't really studied for and should probably be doing right now :/). And that means that there will be ages where i'm just standing outside the exam room, alone waiting to get called in. And everyone else will be standing with their friends, looking at me, the creepy little awkward girl.
I hate it so much. At least on a normal timetable i can usually hide, but i can't get out of awkward situations like this. I hate being so awkward all the time =/
...I thought this was going to be a positive little blog entry, but evidently not.
I need to go and study now. And not eat more cake, even though that's all i can think about right now. . .
Hope everyone out there's doing ok :)
Mari x
Song of the Day: Babydoll by The Fratellis
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